Dealing With Disappointment

How do you deal with disappointment? I don’t handle it very well. I’m going to give full disclosure here… I am in the throes of being disappointed, I don’t think I have really even processed it yet so this blog might go in a direction not intended. We shall see…

Life has been crazy busy lately, mostly fun, but not all. My daughter is getting married in a couple of months!! Yay!!! So much fun!!

Health wise I’ve had an infection of MRSA on my leg and I have been trying to pass a kidney stone going on a couple of weeks now. Don’t be jelly of me!! My psoriasis and psoriatic arthritis have been going good lately though. PTL!! So what am I disappointed about? Well let me tell you… I am on a medication that my doctor gives me samples for for my arthritis. He gives me 3-5 boxes every time I need samples. Why does he do that? Well, he has me on a really aggressive treatment for my arthritis. For me to get all of the meds he wants me on he has to give me samples. Ok. So. I am out of meds and I call to see if he has any samples he can put back for me and he tells me he no longer has a rep for that drug company. This. Is. Bad. It means no samples for me or any other patients. Without this med, my walking abilities deteriorate. Without this med my ability to use my hands deteriorate. Did I mention that my daughter is getting married soon? I want to be able to help her get dressed. I want to be able to walk down the isle. I want to be able to dance and feel good and enjoy my only daughter’s wedding! We have worked really hard to give her the wedding of her dreams and I want to enjoy it and have fun!!

Ok so I’m going into a little pity party here… let’s back up this train before it gets out of hand…

I know that my God, my loving Father is in control and He will take care of this situation! Of course I want His will to be done in every situation. So no matter if I am walking with a cane (and you can bet it will be a fabulous cane!) I will still be having a blast because my baby girl is marrying the man of her dreams at the wedding of her dreams!!!!

Thank you Lord for turning my attitude around and allowing me to remember that YOU are in control and that YOU alone will work this out!! I love you Father and leave this situation in Your very capable hands!!

Philippians 4:6-7 ESV

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

UPDATE:

Y’all God is at work! I saw and felt Him taking care of biz yesterday!! A great friend took time out of her day to help me with my medicine problem. She sent me her results of her research and as soon as I read her text, God decided to show out. Like a light bulb turning on above my head, I knew exactly how to fix the situation. It was not my idea but God’s. I called my dr and told the nurse and a couple of hours later they had decided that would work. I am so thankful that my friend allowed God to use her!!! Without her thinking of me and my situation, she and I would not have talked, hence the lightbulb would y’all continue to pray for this situation. Thank y’all.