RELYING ON GOD

I have told y’all in a previous post that I am speaking at a convention in February. This convention is for the drug that cleared my skin. I am sure I’ve mentioned before that I prayed for the Lord to open doors for me to be able to share my experiences and maybe help someone that is starting their journey through psoriasis or someone that is struggling in their journey. Originally, my rheumatologist and my dermatologist were going to speak about my long journey that they have been on with me for the most part. I was going to be interviewed then they were going to come out to join me. Well, just as in life, things change. I found out yesterday that my 2 doctors were not going to be able to make it.

My first reaction was panic. Honestly, I had a “moment”. I called one of the doctors and asked him, “whhhaaaatttt!!!!!”  Lol  Seriously, I couldn’t believe they bailed on me…  My doctor that I called had a pretty good idea, and that calmed me down. I was scheduled to have a conference call with the reps from the company this evening and they were so nice and we got along wonderfully.

One of the first questions they asked me was whether I was still comfortable speaking even though my doctors (my security, my safety net) were not going to be there. I had not even considered not speaking but when that question came up, I realized that I had prayed for the Lord to open doors for me to help others. I never mentioned opening doors for me and my doctors. I also realized that God didn’t want my security or my safety net to be anyone but Him.

When I answered their question, I was unsure of how to respond. I did not want to offend either of them and I didn’t know if they were Christians or atheists. So, what was my answer? I told them that I didn’t want to offend them if they were not religious, but that I had prayed for God to open doors for me to reach out to those that are going through what I’ve gone through. He has opened a door and I’m walking through it.

After I answered in that way, I was so relieved that they were even more excited about me speaking than before. I’m really looking forward to meeting these two in person and sharing how God has worked in each of our lives.

I asked for God to open the doors but He is not only opening the doors, He is blessing me with new friendships with my brothers and sisters in Christ!!

I realize that I should not worry about offending anyone with my faith in God, and I’m really not a “people pleaser” but religion is such a hot button for some…  Remember, I’m still a work in progress!!  Also, I’m sure you noticed my first reaction when I found out the doctors were not coming … I didn’t go to the Lord, I panicked. He is always there for me and He always takes care of me and yet I still panic.  It’s just crazy y’all!!  One would think by now I would automatically turn to Him but He isn’t finished with me yet!!