Send Me

“Father God, here I am. Send me.” Those few words are so hard to pray. Yes, I want to do God’s will and reach others for Christ, but what if He sends me to Africa? Or to Asia? Or to some other foreign land that I’m not comfortable in… what if He just wants to use me here at home…

I have known for quite some time that God wanted to use how He has worked in my life to reach those people that need to hear it (or read it in this case). I finally gave in a few days before I started this blog site.

I had no doubts nor was I scared to allow God to use my experiences of adversity in my life and how He brought me through them. Growing up, I watched my precious daddy live his life for God everyday. Daddy could have given up and wallowed in his sicknesses, but he didn’t. As I wrote in another blog, Daddy was a bi-vocational pastor. He was called to his first church when I was an infant and he was still preaching and using the Lord to help him lead a church until the day he changed his address to the streets of gold in Heaven. In between his first church and his last, he had a massive heart attack at the very early age of 38 years old. He was told he would not survive 2 months. A few years later, he found out he had renal cell carcinoma (cancer in his kidney) which moved to his lungs. A few years after that he had to have bi-pass surgery where we were surprised to find out during the surgery that he had an aneurism in his heart that actually blew as soon as he was put on the heart and lung machine. With God’s help, the surgeon was able to patch the hole in his heart and perform the 5 bi-passes.

To look at my daddy, you would never know that he was sick a day in his life. What a testimony to me!! Without knowing, Daddy taught me how to face and overcome health adversities. I did not realize that I would have to use what he taught me, but not too long after I got married my health issues began.

I am not going to go into details about my health right now, other than to tell you that I have thyroid disease, diabetes, psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, cirrhosis of the liver, sleep apnea, chronic anemia, metabolic syndrome, etc. People ask me all the time, “how do you deal with so much?” My answer is most always, “by the grace of God.” I have this theory that if I keep a smile on my face, it makes me feel better. Try it. Especially when you are having a bad day.

Like I said earlier, I have felt the Lord telling me that He had a plan for my life, that even though He didn’t not give me the diseases, He can use them to reach out to others with the same issues.

Following God’s path may not always be easy, and you may tell him, “here I am Lord. Send me. Use me.” And He may send you across the world, or He may want to use you right where you are. You will never know unless you offer yourself to do His work.

1 CHRONICLES 16:24 Declare his glory among the nations,

    his marvelous deeds among all peoples.